As you all know.. I've been in a relationship for three years. I was happy but with every relationship there's a constant problem... That problem was me I suppose.
First let me say that I haven't been happy for a while. Since he bought the house and only put it in his name. I felt that was a huge slap to the face.. that's when it started. I swallowed my pride but it would bug me from time to time... He re-insured me that it was "both our homes" but I didn't feel it... If it's not on paper than it's not our home.. it's your home and I'm living in it, paying the utilities.
I took him to a nice, expensive restaurant for our 3rd year Anniversary. I regret it. That's when I knew I didn't want to spend the rest of my life with him.
We learn how to fall in love... but no one teaches you how to fall out.© - kg
I will admit that I cheated... I got caught and now it's over. I hate myself for it. I didn't want it to end that way but I wanted it to end. I wasn't truly happy. Yeah I lose a lot but I gain something money can't buy... Freedom.
I cried about it yesterday as I was moving out but today is a new day. It's going to take some time to put the past behind me... It's going to take a while to recover for him and for me.
The worst part was leaving my dogs. I'm crying thinking about them. But I could NEVER be selfish enough to separate them. Unlike their owners, they belong together.
And with all my posts for here on out, I will leave you with these lyrics from Mariah Carey's beautiful song Angel's Cry featuring Ne-Yo. Actually Ne-Yo's verse is everything
I thought we'd be forever and always
You were serenity
You took away the bad days
Didn't always treat you right
But it was OK
I do somethin' stupid
And you still stay with me
But you can only go for so long
Doing the one you claim to love wrong
Before too much is enough
You look up
Find your love gone
We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say goodbye
'Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Now every night
I feel the angels cry