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As you all know.. I've been in a relationship for three years. I was happy but with every relationship there's a constant problem... That problem was me I suppose.
First let me say that I haven't been happy for a while. Since he bought the house and only put it in his name. I felt that was a huge slap to the face.. that's when it started. I swallowed my pride but it would bug me from time to time... He re-insured me that it was "both our homes" but I didn't feel it... If it's not on paper than it's not our home.. it's your home and I'm living in it, paying the utilities.
I took him to a nice, expensive restaurant for our 3rd year Anniversary. I regret it. That's when I knew I didn't want to spend the rest of my life with him.
We learn how to fall in love... but no one teaches you how to fall out.© - kg
I will admit that I cheated... I got caught and now it's over. I hate myself for it. I didn't want it to end that way but I wanted it to end. I wasn't truly happy. Yeah I lose a lot but I gain something money can't buy... Freedom.
I cried about it yesterday as I was moving out but today is a new day. It's going to take some time to put the past behind me... It's going to take a while to recover for him and for me.
The worst part was leaving my dogs. I'm crying thinking about them. But I could NEVER be selfish enough to separate them. Unlike their owners, they belong together.
And with all my posts for here on out, I will leave you with these lyrics from Mariah Carey's beautiful song Angel's Cry featuring Ne-Yo. Actually Ne-Yo's verse is everything
In a country side mansion outside Los Angeles, CA, where a crazed doctor is glowing with greed comes an inspiring story when that same doctor that murdered your father, becomes your best friend. An emo teen (played by Dakota Fanning) can't seem to move on after her father's murder. After a series of events, Pattie Princess Johnson attempted suicide and failed ending up reaching out to her father's murderer, Dr. Connor Murphy. What will become of them in the new drama: "You Are Not Alone".
In case you didn't read it before, here's the transcript:
I crossed some things out.. That's what I want to comment on.. I have dreamed about it.. and cried about it but the relationship I had wasn't something I truly wanted. I felt to dependent on my other half... it wasn't equal like I wanted it in my dreams.