Bailey

sure i think its all about numbers no one really cares, i see people with like 900 friends and I be like huh?

your right....i came to that conclusion without question last night, i said it and felt it, no doubts anymore, i used to doubt is he playing games, I at the beginning gave him the benefit of the doubt that it was not games, then i question is it games? Now im like it is all games always has been and im playing myself.

oh btw its great to have the gang back...*sigh*.... praise em.....anywho are we all facebook friends? I wanna make sure look me up Johnie Bailey, most of the Janet folks are my friends there

he can still call i can block his number from texting, unless you can block numbers from a smart phone i have a razor, and on top of that he even made fun of me there, he had the nerve to say "my number hasnt changed in 13 years!" then I thought about it im like so bitch you telling me you had a cell phone in 1997? How many of us had cell phones back then?

but ima give ya'll the dirt so we ended up at the bar a few weeks back, and his ex corey works there, and i did not know he did not tell me til after, he loves drama, anyway im thinking to myself do i want to end up like Corey, I mean Brian shows up to the bar with me to "show off" so his ex can see and get upset? Then he says his ex doesnt get upset or jealous im like dude you is fucking crazy. I dont want to be Corey where at some point its Brian and some other dude and he all about showing it in my face thats just evil

he made fun of me, he goes well i guess now that you want to sever ties you gotta call the phone company so you can change your number for the tenth time im like bitch you is really out there

my ex Brian is down right mean, I finally was doing well, which people here dont know me enough to see i do have some strength I changed my number blocked all emails from him, and went over a month no contact at all, Brian emails me from his work email which I never had, and he said he thought I had committed suicide and he googled a johnie bailey that died in Texas and was talking about how he knew that was not me and blah blah blah, im like this bitch is really crazy, how the fuck you think I died? and over what? you? bitch im doing school and me now

im just trying to figure out how to keep him away! The man is out of his fucking mind, his ex Corey apparently had sex with him last weekend, so Brian tells me Corey has no emotions and he doesnt have jealousy either, but you Johnie your always mad and upset, im like no Brian you got Corey wrapped around your finger doing all you want and im not Corey im Johnie im not going to be doing what you want when you want, im like fuck it, im tired I really think thats what it takes for me, for everyone its different, and for me I think it took me seeing the true Brian and im tired, I could not be happy with that, plus I noticed last night, he getting fat. That ass is getting some pounds on it it aint even hot no moe, im thinking you jiggly

i already lost a friend because of this, and I think thats the worst thing in the world if you care about him leave that door open, im not saying put up with him coming around telling you over and over like I am, im saying dont leave him feeling alone, thats not good trust me on this

thats where I am at problem is he contacts me, trust me guys im really not that bad my thing is there are so few options here, im like fuck it i would rather be alone then deal with him

ok and? As in when did you stop contact? Or do you still speak? I have come to the conclusion everyone on here was right about my ex, its all games for him and I have determined I must sever all ties with him he takes away my peace and my joy he leaves me drained of positive energy.

im tired of hurting myself, we fucked tonight ....and it was not about me staying the night, no cuddle, i didnt even kiss him the entire act, i think he is evil

I like her, great interview too, I love wisdom

"Goodbye Horses" Q Lazarus

give me some new stuff to rock out too, and bare in mind I dont really do ballads much, I like to dance but I dont listen to the radio I dont even know who the hell Nicki Manj or whatever is I just want to listen to some new good stuff, I like that Keri song "pretty girl rock"

lmao damn we shooting hos now? wow

I actually love the song and the video, took a second for me to warm up to it but I love it, thanks for posting it

I said no and no again im like this, right now no one is dropping albums because the business model of selling music is broken, they dont know how to make money off what people can steal

ConvertXtoDVD look for a copy on piratebay and download it either cracked or with a key gen to activate it, basically it is what it says it will take a file you have say avi or xvid and convert it to a dvd

I dont want to end up being like his ex Corey, Corey sees him out with other guys and still talks to Brian, Brian said to me once "I can have Corey whenever I want him", "Corey begs to come over all the time" I dont want to leave Brian with the thought well "I can have Johnie whenever I want, Johnie loves me" funny thing is Brian never says the word love ever, not EVER, not once in 5 months since the break up, its almost like he is stuck on show no emotion never let them see you sweat, I made the mistake of telling him im not over it I love you, he NEVER says I love you to me EVER NOT ONCE

now thats something for me to go off of, thank you so much, all of you, im thinking its time for me to do me and break off contact altogether, funny thing is the guys he finds are nothing compared to me, he said himself there is nothing here so he lost not me, but I have to grow, I cant be mister emotional, I tell him too much he tells me too little and lies alot too, im getting over this because honestly im tired of the bullshit im too old for this shit. Its just all weird because basically im learning there is no Santa and that the game is fucked up but were all in it so you have to play it or you lose you have no choice there, I dont want someone that thinks of black dick as a toy, I do want a committed monogamous relationship, in time when its right for me, Brian just fucked up alot anyway, so maybe one day he wont bother me, its just taking a minute for me to heal

look I know your a tough cookie, but lets all open our minds, this experience has forced me to grow and learn, so for you if your alone for what seems forever and you find someone madly attractive and they actually give you some attention you fall for the bullshit, its sad, its fucked, its wrong, but yes I let alot of bad shit go down the important thing is for folks to see that well jbailey is learning he did break it off, he isnt talking about how to get back with his ex but how to move on, im on the right path now, im growing, im learning to respect myself no one is perfect, that is what my friend told me, he said we ALL have our shortcomings, mine was wanting him so much I forgot about taking care of my own needs

apparently alot of people got frustrated over this and me, I lost a good friend over this I think I lost respect from him because he saw that I didnt respect myself, and basically people get tired of hearing about the same thing when they tell you what you need to hear and you keep putting your finger in the electrical socket anyway yet asking why does it shock me?

I think so too, issue is I changed my number and blocked him from emailing me he then emailed me from his work email, I was actually doing well I had not seen him in months and I was not talkign to him, one good thing about me is I dont call you, I have my father's pride, I would never contact Brian, so he actually said to me, because he had not heard from me that he thought I had committed suicide, this is the type of person I dealt with. I told him in response to the "i thought you committed suicide" I said "over what?" you?

thats what I thought too that im just opening the wound up again and again, maybe when I am healed I wont want him at all, what do you think? I mean part of me really thinks what will happen is I will see him as a slut and that I dont like him at all, I dont like his immaturity, like last time I saw him about two weeks ago he was all about going out to the bar, I said I came here to spend the night with you and just you not the bar so dont bring the bar up again once i get there, I failed to stand my ground we ended up at the bar but I did have fun, problem was he had an agenda he wanted to "show me off" but once we got to the bar his ex was there and some kid he "knows" was there too, he introduced me to the "kid" and this boy said after we were walking away "have fun with him" im like Brian whats THAT about? I did not want to be in a bar with my ex. I guess his other ex who I have not met saw me and did not know who I was and said "well at least that one is cute" Brian apparently loves drama, and he goes " my ex would not have said your cute if he knew who you were but he didnt recognize me"