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  1. On 7/27/2020 at 11:50 AM, Bailey said:

    can we trust the pics in London? I say this because she was wearing a lot of baggy clothes :unsure:  or I could just say, it's good to see her at all and she looks great :wub: 

    I think it’s an old picture. Regardless, it’s good to see her. 

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  2. 10 minutes ago, Laveaux said:

    I'm actually doing much better. First week was a struggle but I pushed myself and now a bitch is walking around the neighborhood, breathing under control...hell I'm even out in these streets again...social distancing and wearing a mask of course. I'm even gaining weight...now I'm somewhere between All For You and Damita Jo...its cute for now. I'm making it work lol. Thank you for asking.

    When I was in the hospital I made a choice one night that I was gonna fight this shit, so the doctors and nurses came in the next day and a bitch was sitting up in a chair without the breathing machine and they knew I wasn't playing. They released my ass the same week. The voodoo spirit is to strong honey. 

    I'm glad you got tested. I made everyone I know go get tested. It's sad that these numbers continue to spike. They just don't know.

    I’m so glad you kept your sense of humor lmaooo. 
     

    I did get tested because I felt a sore throat but luckily I didn’t have anything. However I no longer travel to keep myself safe. I may see family if I start to see the curve flattening but I’ve been living very natural. 
     

    I had a colleague almost lose a spouse and he’s still recovering so it’s very sobering to hear stories. 

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  3. On 6/25/2020 at 6:48 PM, Laveaux said:

    Yes chile.

    It was tricky because I have bad allergies around this time...so it started off with me just coughing a lot in the middle of May. I would pop a Claritin and things would be better. Had no fever or anything. Towards the end of May, the coughing got a little more aggressive (so I thought I might be sick)...and I started getting chills and a slight headache...I was like okay...I'm getting tested tomorrow...( I had to jump through all these fucking hoops just to get a test....that pissed me off)...anywho, they swabbed my mouth and told me I'd get the results in 5 days....so I tried to be patient and wait but by that 3rd day....she was on my ass, muscles were weak af, could barely get air in my lungs...that was Sunday the end of May I believe...told my friend to call the sirens...its an emergency. 

    I literally just got out yesterday lol. It's crazy because they had a feeding tube down my throat, so I was knocked out most of the time when I first got there and finally when I'm coherent...I see all these Black men still being killed by police, people rioting, looting, chaos....I almost told them to put me back under.

    Da fuq going on out chea. Smh

     

    I’m not going to lie. I tested up reading your post. I’m sooo grateful that you’re still here with us. 
     

    How are you feeling? I know of a people that have had a long road to recovery. And you’re right: this is not to play with. I haven’t seen my family yet because of the spike in cases and I’d hate to either get it or get my parents sick. 

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  4. 16 hours ago, Laveaux said:

    As someone who JUST got out of the hospital from battling Covid and her respiratory demons for almost a month.....fuck a tour! I'm here to tell you, take this shit seriously.

    Its already getting worse. And don't take breathing for granted ever again. I can barely walk to the kitchen without getting winded....I was 6'1, 175-180.....now I'm 6'1 140...shit ain't cute yall. 

    Worse part is that I have an appetite BUT my taste buds are fucked because of the medicine I'm on. #miserable A bitch really want a lemon pepper wing.

    But seriously....

    Stay safe!

     

     

     

    OMG! I’m so glad to hear that you’re recovering. When did you start feeling off?

  5. 7 hours ago, Jakob said:

    That wouldn't have made sense. The tour would've kicked-off in a few days. She was not gonna drop the first single after the first show (at least I don't think so). And yes, she said we would be getting the album before the end of the tour, but by now we would've had a release date and album cover. Why would you wait that long to reveal everything when the tour is already happening?

    She wouldn’t be the first artist to do this. I’m 100% sure Beyoncé went on tour in 2013 months before she dropped her self-titled album. It’s not new for artists to phase it in while on tour. It could be a myriad of reasons: not having the album finished yet, still working through a promo schedule, etc. Those things could’ve been in work while touring. 

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  6. 11 hours ago, Aquaria said:

    I think what's key as allies is taking the back seat and supporting. Listening. Amplifying black voices. 

    As Brittany Packnett Cunningham (@mspackyetti) keeps saying, "We Save Us." What we as allies can do is continue to educate ourselves and our non-BIPOC friends and family. Donate to causes and as I said before amplify black voices.

    Also, taking care of mental health right now is SO IMPORTANT. I feel like even the most "solid" people right now are feeling this strain, let alone people affected by anxiety, depression, etc. You're right that this is not something we "move on" from and it's important to continue to stay engaged and keep supporting this movement. That being said, I've been reading it's healthy to limit your social/news intake to a designated time and cap it off so you are not incessantly refreshing your feed and building more and more anxiety. 

    I would agree with this. I’ve limited the amount of news I’ve watched just to guard my own sanity. And then at times I’ve watched shows like The Office or 90 Day Fiance to remind myself to laugh. I may start journaling. 

  7. 13 hours ago, Selz said:

    You know what - it helps too to hear you say that.  As much as I want to (and am) stand up for people of colour right now, it is a bit of a minefield because like many white people I don't want to offend.  But it helps to have read things like being told that it's better to say something and get it wrong than to not say anything at all.  It's really encouraging to me that things are actually happening, like Chauvin's charge being increased and the other three officers arrested and charged, but at the same time I'm aware that white people need to be watched at this point, that we don't rest on our laurels because this one thing happened.  After all, the officers who beat Rodney King were all arrested, and they got off because the jury was white.  White people don't get to stop pulling up just because some officers in the latest case were arrested. 

    What I think I do need to do is find the line between saying stuff all the time and listening to others.  My sister in law messaged me on Insta a couple days ago and told me to 'move on'.  When I asked 'Why?' she said because I have been signed off with anxiety and depression she worries that this issue can have an impact on mental health.  While I understand that, I also understand that moving on is not an option.  It's only my privilege that would allow me to do that.  I cannot.  I could spend hours reading social media posts but have come to realise that a lot of them are making the same point, and it's a point that I DO get.  I do want to keep on top of updates though.

    I hope you all don't mind me saying this here, I'm just pouring out some of what's been going through my head the last few days.

    I’ve seen your activity on Facebook and I genuinely appreciate it. We will see how this all plays out with the officers because while I’d like to believe they’d go to jail, I’ve seen this movie too many times. It’s been interesting and fascinating to see more White people advocate and explain racism to other White people. Far too often it has been the plight of the oppressed to talk to the oppressor and that never made sense to me. I think you have to balance your activity with your self-care. For example, Tuesday was a bad day for me in terms of being emotionally spent. So much so I forgot to eat and that never happens to me.  It’s a long fight so give yourself the space and the energy. Thank You for being willing to do the work. 

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  8. 3 hours ago, Aquaria said:

    I truly hope you are doing ok as can be and hanging in there. I love and support you (and all in this thread). 

    As awful and heart wrenching as this is... look at the entire WORLD rising up to demand justice. It is inspiring. 

    Yeah. I think I’m going to take a mental health day soon to just recharge. Yesterday was heavy. I had friends/allies reaching out and we had some very emotional conversations. A lot weighing on me right now but I honestly hadn’t expected this kind of reaction. It just feels different. And that helps. 

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  9. 12 hours ago, JoeJoe said:

    I'm doing good but it's so scary these days. I feel bad for the younger generation having to grow up and see all this shit. I'm also in another way happy that after all the fighting and protesting to be treated like normal human beings these younger ones are out there in the streets protesting like the ones before us have done. What makes me see more hope in the future is that all these white people are out here protesting for us and with us. I've never seen this in my lifetime. Yes i'm sure back in the day a few whites have marched in protest with blacks but now when you look at the protests other races are outnumbering us and it's about time. We would never be able to do this by ourselves. We need them by our side. Angie idk if you're still out there in L.A. but its a shitfest out there. Y'all LAPD got dragged along with the police chief Michel Moore. The citizens were calling in getting on that ass. Cursing him out, calling them all trash, saying "fuck you", threatening to find out where they live and all kinds of info. One white boy called in and told him if he doesn't resign there's gonna be hell to pay and that he has no choice but to do what the people of LA say. :o 

     

    I’m in Chicago now and it’s a mess over here as well. I live in downtown Chicago and safety has been an issue. Last weekend was wild! There was some looting a couple of blocks from me. It’s a mess but in some weird ways, it’s encouraging. 

  10. 10 hours ago, Aquaria said:

    I appreciate this thread... it's hard talking about this. I know everyone is struggling and I just never go too far in depth because I don't want to dwell there or add to their worries by worrying about me. 

    Covid was/(is!) 1 thing... the isolation had taken a slight toll on my sanity but I've been able to soldier through as I am more of a lone wolf anyway. I was able to keep hope alive that the world would emerge wiser and forced to change for the better.

    What's been happening recently... it makes me feel there is no justice, and no hope. I feel I need to stay informed but I realized how unnatural/scarring it is to see so much real life violence playing out, so I've been starting to put a cap on how much I'm looking at. It's been really fucking me up, and I can't imagine how my black friends must feel. It's just sick, and evil, and it's honestly giving me a phobia of people in this world and what they are capable of. 

    How are you holding up Angie? 

    I pretty much like you, and in that I am a lone wolf. I missed seeing my family but my parents are over 60 and I didn’t want to risk getting on a flight and potentially exposing them. I went outside for my own sanity. I will say that I’m grateful to still have a job and not going out has helped me to save money so I’m appreciative of it. 
     

    With all of the killings, I was doing a great job of compartmentalizing but Breonna Taylor’s killing was the first major crack in my facade and then George Floyd was the final tipping point. It’s really hard to work when there’s such a huge burden weighing on you. Last week was really rough and I didn’t know how much I was holding in until I was on a conference call and a senior leader brought it up and I started to cry. Thank goodness we weren’t on camera because I cried really hard for about 20 minutes. I called my brothers and sister just to talk to them and check in on them and I had a really difficult conversation with my mom. 
     

    I am a huge supporter of the protests and while I’m saddened about some businesses being destroyed that currently serve underserved communities, I’m a supporter of the movement. As a Black woman, I just get so tired of waiting for justice and to be seen as human. And this last couple of days, tensions have been high at work and I finally told someone off because there are so many bigger things on my mind than a number on a PowerPoint chart. The violence has been scary, admittedly. I live 0.25 miles from a really nice street in Chicago that was looted. I couldn’t go outside and I had to have a couple of backup plans just in case they got to my apartment building. 
     

    I will also express my sincere gratitude and appreciation of my nonblack friends and acquaintances intentionally reaching out to check on me. I’ve been very moved and I remain hopeful. 

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  11. I’ll admit it: I was pissed when Obama said it. I do think when it came to race relations he had a fine line to walk but he did disappoint me at times when it came to race. It’s why I think there are some chinks in his armor with younger Black Millennials and Gen Z because at times he played it too safe with a group of people that were never going to accept him. 

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  12. 10 hours ago, Aquaria said:

    Even though we are not all as active this forum holds a special place in my heart. Thank you Angie for keeping it running all these years, that fact most of us have been posting together for at least 14 years is crazy to think about. 

    It is crazy to think about it. This forum and the people that are a part of it mean a lot to me. I’ve been part of the online Janfam community for almost 19 years which is insane. I couldn’t imagine not knowing y’all. 

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  13. 14 hours ago, Selz said:

    It’s nuts that we didn’t know - but then how would the fam know to contact us... Paul was such a great guy when I met him with Bu, he was funny and that squirrel whispering thing was crazy lol.

    There’s been a lot of people disappeared off this forum. I think about Henry quite often.

    I’m glad you got to meet him. It is crazy to think about how some of our most active members are no longer here. I do hope Henry is well. 
     

    Paul is I think the third  member I’ve known that’s passed. While it’s a reality of life, it still hurts when it’s one of our own. 
     

    I love y’all. 

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