First let me say that I haven't been happy for a while. Since he bought the house and only put it in his name. I felt that was a huge slap to the face.. that's when it started. I swallowed my pride but it would bug me from time to time... He re-insured me that it was "both our homes" but I didn't feel it... If it's not on paper than it's not our home.. it's your home and I'm living in it, paying the utilities.
I took him to a nice, expensive restaurant for our 3rd year Anniversary. I regret it. That's when I knew I didn't want to spend the rest of my life with him.
We learn how to fall in love... but no one teaches you how to fall out.© - kg
I will admit that I cheated... I got caught and now it's over. I hate myself for it. I didn't want it to end that way but I wanted it to end. I wasn't truly happy. Yeah I lose a lot but I gain something money can't buy... Freedom.
I cried about it yesterday as I was moving out but today is a new day. It's going to take some time to put the past behind me... It's going to take a while to recover for him and for me.
The worst part was leaving my dogs. I'm crying thinking about them. But I could NEVER be selfish enough to separate them. Unlike their owners, they belong together.
And with all my posts for here on out, I will leave you with these lyrics from Mariah Carey's beautiful song Angel's Cry featuring Ne-Yo. Actually Ne-Yo's verse is everything