Bailey

next step is me working on my self esteem issues which is where all this shit came from, I dont mind being open about things obviliously so i have a certain friend I see once a week for an hour and I talk they listen, in any case they told me because i had a bad relationship with my father i chose emotionally unavailable men because im still trying to win that approval i didnt get, ok cue the violin, point is im working on me, what I want, being assertive, I was not assertive with Brian he would tell me its all about him basically and you leave it or take it...im out

ok folks its done, blocked on my emails blocked on my phone and guess what sprint just added a new feature as of 11/17 you can now block certain numbers from calling you or you calling them! Its not just block texts anymore!!!!.......that bitch is GONE like da dust he is nasty fucking bitch

um because men are men and the sex was good thats about the only thing keeping me hooked

bitch what? :0 the emotional damage was harder i think, because physical wounds can heal faster than emotional damage.

can i tell a secret here, because it should not be known to him, however lets just say i got some revenge on him real good

sure i think its all about numbers no one really cares, i see people with like 900 friends and I be like huh?

your right....i came to that conclusion without question last night, i said it and felt it, no doubts anymore, i used to doubt is he playing games, I at the beginning gave him the benefit of the doubt that it was not games, then i question is it games? Now im like it is all games always has been and im playing myself.

oh btw its great to have the gang back...*sigh*.... praise em.....anywho are we all facebook friends? I wanna make sure look me up Johnie Bailey, most of the Janet folks are my friends there

he can still call i can block his number from texting, unless you can block numbers from a smart phone i have a razor, and on top of that he even made fun of me there, he had the nerve to say "my number hasnt changed in 13 years!" then I thought about it im like so bitch you telling me you had a cell phone in 1997? How many of us had cell phones back then?

but ima give ya'll the dirt so we ended up at the bar a few weeks back, and his ex corey works there, and i did not know he did not tell me til after, he loves drama, anyway im thinking to myself do i want to end up like Corey, I mean Brian shows up to the bar with me to "show off" so his ex can see and get upset? Then he says his ex doesnt get upset or jealous im like dude you is fucking crazy. I dont want to be Corey where at some point its Brian and some other dude and he all about showing it in my face thats just evil

he made fun of me, he goes well i guess now that you want to sever ties you gotta call the phone company so you can change your number for the tenth time im like bitch you is really out there

my ex Brian is down right mean, I finally was doing well, which people here dont know me enough to see i do have some strength I changed my number blocked all emails from him, and went over a month no contact at all, Brian emails me from his work email which I never had, and he said he thought I had committed suicide and he googled a johnie bailey that died in Texas and was talking about how he knew that was not me and blah blah blah, im like this bitch is really crazy, how the fuck you think I died? and over what? you? bitch im doing school and me now

im just trying to figure out how to keep him away! The man is out of his fucking mind, his ex Corey apparently had sex with him last weekend, so Brian tells me Corey has no emotions and he doesnt have jealousy either, but you Johnie your always mad and upset, im like no Brian you got Corey wrapped around your finger doing all you want and im not Corey im Johnie im not going to be doing what you want when you want, im like fuck it, im tired I really think thats what it takes for me, for everyone its different, and for me I think it took me seeing the true Brian and im tired, I could not be happy with that, plus I noticed last night, he getting fat. That ass is getting some pounds on it it aint even hot no moe, im thinking you jiggly

i already lost a friend because of this, and I think thats the worst thing in the world if you care about him leave that door open, im not saying put up with him coming around telling you over and over like I am, im saying dont leave him feeling alone, thats not good trust me on this

thats where I am at problem is he contacts me, trust me guys im really not that bad my thing is there are so few options here, im like fuck it i would rather be alone then deal with him

ok and? As in when did you stop contact? Or do you still speak? I have come to the conclusion everyone on here was right about my ex, its all games for him and I have determined I must sever all ties with him he takes away my peace and my joy he leaves me drained of positive energy.

im tired of hurting myself, we fucked tonight ....and it was not about me staying the night, no cuddle, i didnt even kiss him the entire act, i think he is evil

I like her, great interview too, I love wisdom

"Goodbye Horses" Q Lazarus

give me some new stuff to rock out too, and bare in mind I dont really do ballads much, I like to dance but I dont listen to the radio I dont even know who the hell Nicki Manj or whatever is I just want to listen to some new good stuff, I like that Keri song "pretty girl rock"

lmao damn we shooting hos now? wow

I actually love the song and the video, took a second for me to warm up to it but I love it, thanks for posting it

I said no and no again im like this, right now no one is dropping albums because the business model of selling music is broken, they dont know how to make money off what people can steal

ConvertXtoDVD look for a copy on piratebay and download it either cracked or with a key gen to activate it, basically it is what it says it will take a file you have say avi or xvid and convert it to a dvd

I dont want to end up being like his ex Corey, Corey sees him out with other guys and still talks to Brian, Brian said to me once "I can have Corey whenever I want him", "Corey begs to come over all the time" I dont want to leave Brian with the thought well "I can have Johnie whenever I want, Johnie loves me" funny thing is Brian never says the word love ever, not EVER, not once in 5 months since the break up, its almost like he is stuck on show no emotion never let them see you sweat, I made the mistake of telling him im not over it I love you, he NEVER says I love you to me EVER NOT ONCE