Bailey

why are gay dudes so damn messy? All I want is someone to settle down with, if he's attractive and got his head on his shoulders right like me its all good, but these dudes just be on some sex shit, my ex talked to someone I knew and that guy broke it down for me, he was like your ex is a freak and you cant make a housewife outta a ho.

keep it between you and that guy tell him no, cause that's messy and dont speak to me about it again.

stop it, this is not fun for me I like you better when you have something to say meaningful, and yes this topic is tired to you but for me its what im going thru

im having some hard times here dont be a dick

u said 3 months tho....i want to know or see me in 3 months no contact, my ex always hits me up just to see if he still has that power

im in a psychology class, its developmental psy, which means we went thru psychology from birth to adulthood, and we are talking about adult relationships now, and there is a theory by a guy called the 4 hoursemen of the apocalypse it refers to 4 signs of a failed relationship, so I posted on mine, because we had all 4 contempt, Brian would say I was annoying him when I tried to talk to him about our problems, criticism, he would say the meanest things, defensiveness, when I would try to call him out on his shit he would say I always feel like your arguing with me, and the worst of the four to me, stonewalling, its when I would talk and he would act as if I was not even in the room. This class taught me a few things about myself, and my ex, I read that stonewalling is actually a means of communicating that you dont know is, when doctors would hook up monitors to someone stonewalling they found the person you thought was not caring or just being cold was actually very effected by what was going on, I rememeber the night I packed my bags and told him I was leaving, he got really calm sat on the couch and said nothing as I ranted, a few weeks later he saw me because we were still going, and saw that bag, and he goes, "I hate that bag it reminds me of that horrible night" and I thought to myself...wait? I remember that night you didnt flinch...

...its tough, Paul was right, if I let the ex back in its a scab that keeps getting unhealed. I am hurting tonight, im sad, lonely, upset, this shit is not easy. I find myself googling how to get over an ex, everyone says stay busy, well I only have so much to do, and lately I have been lazy, I started working out over 2 months ago, I actually see results now, I cant imagine in 6 months what i would look like. So tonight I knew I have papers to write, exams to prepare for, and I actually decided to just get drunk. One thing I mentioned before is true, I NEVER contact my ex, I dont know if its just my father's pride in me or what, but I can't be that guy. I read its just going to take time, but I broke up with him in the middle of June, and Dec 12, would have been our 1 year, instead it is the day I finish school and graduate. I never finished my degree, I stopped shy of two classes, I had to fight with petitions and won, I know this thread is crazy but im ranting, I walk cap and gown Dec 12, I sure hope thats enough for me to forget. I just hate this, he always said Im too emotional and that he could tell I still care too much. I hate him for being so cold and distant. Hell I miss my therapist right now, yea I said it, so what, he helps me to see things in a better light, I was told my thinking needs to be bust open altogether. I just dont want to feel or think about this asshole anymore, I know deep down inside, it was not for me, and it really is his lose, if you folks saw the things he is willing to fuck around with compared to me you would want to slap him. I just wanted someone that was apart of my life, that cared about me that truly loved me, but I know now that was not love. I create profiles on websites he is on, its fucking pathetic, so now I fight myself to stay off those places, somedays are better than others, today was not one of them

you know what I would love an Iphone that is if they were with Sprint and not JUST ATT

they was extra nasty, I was like hold on they done gone too far that was until about 1:30 in the video...ohhhh shit

its on youtube

it is nasty aint it

I found it on someones' profile im not even sure if I can post it here but I will tell you about it, its called "Ice Cream Truck" by Cazwell

Ok I checked again I have the Optimus LG S coming my way.....

you know I came to the conclusion that left overs stay too long, a meal is good because a nigga dont get it that much, so having good shit over and over, is well over done, hell I was ready to fuck with Arby's this afternoon fridge filled with left overs

bitch that look like a God damn Ipad what the fuck it need a kick stand ? damn bitch....wonder when phones will float on a nigga no kick stand

ewwww boom bitch im just gonna be jbaileyMchater on dat envy is so ugly

on da real I really have Iphone envy the MOST

okay im with sprint, have been now for almost a decade, they FINALLY had a deal I could not refuse, I have had smart phone envy for awhile, and they had a deal for those of us off contract, that would be me, they are sending me a FREE, that bares repeating, FREE android smart phone in the mail, completed the order today, hell Im drinking cant even tell you what it was but its nice, it has GPS and apps and all kinda shit I dont fucking need.

gurl I would beat it up he would say he needs a break cause it was good and sore with a smile *sigh* cant make a wife outta hoe

you wouldnt suspend me we never punish each other, well my ex was into having his hole punished but that's neither here nor there

....for bringing my ass up in here and the old forum and putting all my stupidity out there over some dumb ass dude. People lose respect for folks that dont show themselves respect, I thank all of you who tolerated that bullshit, I just finished watching Tyler Perry's Big Happy Family play, and he said every woman is looking for the love of her father, and if she did not get it from her father she will put up with game players, my dad fucked his family up, me my brother and mother, if you smart you can put the details together and figure the rest out and why I did what I did. You have to love yourself first, and you cant love nobody until you do.

and what is with the constant texting, if you in the bar talk to someone, why is everyone so mean and jaded? "imm just lean against the wall and blackberry it all night" nigga get out boom ewww

what had happen?

I love that track, but see im humble I dont even come off like that and they act like shit out here im thinking I need to build me a bubble to live in

finally a real response, Paul you a good looking guy, do you see that? I mean in the club im like Johnie how could you be so blind to everything look at these fools they acting all crazy cause this bitch be on the news and I know him so I must be trying to get some, the part that kills me is gay dudes be all in the clubs and about that life, but then they dont know I have been over to dinner parties with the news guy, I have had him at my house for dinner, socializing is not the bar scene fools, maybe if we get these young gay dudes off of facebook and "reality" shows they would see the real world is not that jaded ewww