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ughhh all this shit is really getting to me again. its like my emotions are on a rollercoaster and i fucking hate it

Poor guy, I know how you feel, I really do, you want to take your mind off of it because you KNOW you did the best you could do and the best thing for you in the situation but you cant help but either 2nd guess or just reflect. And it's SO hard to get your brain to just stop all the chatter.......is that where you are?

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Poor guy, I know how you feel, I really do, you want to take your mind off of it because you KNOW you did the best you could do and the best thing for you in the situation but you cant help but either 2nd guess or just reflect. And it's SO hard to get your brain to just stop all the chatter.......is that where you are?

basically its like watching something you put ur everything into just fail, and u wanna be mad but you love that person so much that u actually care how they are doing and hoping they get help, fml it's always the ones that care less that have the most control, bc he is only sad and heartbroken now bc i stopped putting up with his shit, why couldnt he feel like this when we were together and i kept on telling him to get help, kept on saying you're pushing me away? like wtf
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basically its like watching something you put ur everything into just fail, and u wanna be mad but you love that person so much that u actually care how they are doing and hoping they get help, fml it's always the ones that care less that have the most control, bc he is only sad and heartbroken now bc i stopped putting up with his shit, why couldnt he feel like this when we were together and i kept on telling him to get help, kept on saying you're pushing me away? like wtf

Ah been there too, not with a relationship but with fam, it's SO hard but you gotta find a way to get it to lift off your chest, since it's so early in this for you tho you gotta go through it, you gotta respect your feelings and emotions, and allow your heart to feel those things, my advise is when your ready, you gotta channel that to something, whatever your passion is, if you gotta write, write it all out, sing it all out dance it all out, run it all out, or just talk....like now, like with us, I find when Im hurt like that telling someone else about it is better than repeating the same things in my head and going over and over it, and at least your able to take new things in by talking about it, and basically releasing what you feel

I hate that about life sometimes, how you can see SO MUCH in someone that they don't, and sometimes sadly never will, and you can just want the best for them so badly and put yourself through SO much to be there for them and to maybe be there when they change/grow......but then you see their really stunting you and your growth......and you just gotta completely release them, and you don't know what's up tomorrow, or next week, but just releasing them and choosing to expand your horizons and life is SO damn important man, you did so good by doing that. If you can't see that as clearly now, trust me with time you will...if you allow your self. This made you stronger, and showed how hard you can love a person and how much love you can give. You have to go through heart break to rebuild your heart so it can be bigger and stronger than it was before you went through it.

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Ah been there too, not with a relationship but with fam, it's SO hard but you gotta find a way to get it to lift off your chest, since it's so early in this for you tho you gotta go through it, you gotta respect your feelings and emotions, and allow your heart to feel those things, my advise is when your ready, you gotta channel that to something, whatever your passion is, if you gotta write, write it all out, sing it all out dance it all out, run it all out, or just talk....like now, like with us, I find when Im hurt like that telling someone else about it is better than repeating the same things in my head and going over and over it, and at least your able to take new things in by talking about it, and basically releasing what you feel

I hate that about life sometimes, how you can see SO MUCH in someone that they don't, and sometimes sadly never will, and you can just want the best for them so badly and put yourself through SO much to be there for them and to maybe be there when they change/grow......but then you see their really stunting you and your growth......and you just gotta completely release them, and you don't know what's up tomorrow, or next week, but just releasing them and choosing to expand your horizons and life is SO damn important man, you did so good by doing that. If you can't see that as clearly now, trust me with time you will...if you allow your self. This made you stronger, and showed how hard you can love a person and how much love you can give. You have to go through heart break to rebuild your heart so it can be bigger and stronger than it was before you went through it.

yea speaking of singing, brandy's two eleven album is surprisingly a good break up album thats all ive been listening to, after we broke up, that song hardly breathing became a new song to me all over again its like shes singing everything i feel, even so sick its like i kept going back hoping things would change and i just felt crazier each time. i really feel more now than last week, tht tht was one the hardest but most important decisions i had to make, i just need to focus on myself and find myself again bc after going through all of that for a year and a half just putting everything into a relationship, its like a whole other person is getting more attention then you are giving yourself and its worse when tht other person isn't meeting you half way then to have to go through verbal and emotional abuse, its like how much do you take before the relationship is nothing but a battle zone
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yea speaking of singing, brandy's two eleven album is surprisingly a good break up album thats all ive been listening to, after we broke up, that song hardly breathing became a new song to me all over again its like shes singing everything i feel, even so sick its like i kept going back hoping things would change and i just felt crazier each time. i really feel more now than last week, tht tht was one the hardest but most important decisions i had to make, i just need to focus on myself and find myself again bc after going through all of that for a year and a half just putting everything into a relationship, its like a whole other person is getting more attention then you are giving yourself and its worse when tht other person isn't meeting you half way

That to me is the most important thing that you get that, that you see/feel the growth and in time you'll see it even more. Like I love when people take time out to get to know themselves, because thats something both easy and hard that is SO necessary for people to mentally grow. And you never know he might be going that route to soon and you may end up together, or you may end up with better, and that could still be you being single but knowing who you are where you're willing to go and what you really want out of life. In short, you don't need anyone to complete you, and you shouldn't complete anyone, you should already both be completed and enhance each others life with your love. It's always gotta be 50/50, if 1 persons giving more than their getting it's not fair to either 1.

OOH Chille aint NOTHIN like finding that song that reads ya life like you wrote and produced it yourself. I credit I get lonely for my last breakup recovery, stranger in moscow for a previous 1, and Lauryn Hills Ex Factor for my 1st 1..........."Where were you....WHEN I NEEDED YOU", I'd rewind that part over and over....the way she sang that part, but that whole song. Thats great that you found ya song for the occassion

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thts wht i love about u haha, im better right now im watching a movie, then im gonna watch porn and get one off, thts my morning ritual

:lol:! everyone has their needs - you do that!! What movie you watching? I'm at work right now :(. Ugh!

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